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Its so me. Boobs and all. Hahhahaha.

undecisive?

Its true I am. I cant make up my mind on what I want for dinner or who I want to be when I "grow up". One things for sure. I dont want to work for the man. I want to have my own biz. But lord, knows what that will be. Some days I want to hang out with everyone I've ever met and make tons of new friends and some days I want to curl up in bed and not answer the phone. Sometimes I want to care about my body and my weight and become obsessed with them.. and some days I tell myself "curves are so in, so fuck it."

I bounce back and forth between wanting to have children someday and not. Sometimes I am a bitch, and others I am as sweet as pie.

am I bipolar? no.

If you choke a smurf, what color does it turn?

nope nothing new with the sister situation. but thats okay. the more I talk to people and the more support I feel, the better I feel about it. I am not sorry it happened. Okay, Im sorry the way it happened but not sorry that I spoke my mind. not at all. the last communication was her 2nd email in response to mine. her's was horrible. I would have cried my eyes out, if I had let myself.

I dont know how I'll ever be okay with not talking to my older sister, but somehow, I'll manage. Its happened to people before and it will happen to others after this. I tried to make peace of the situation, but sometimes people aren't looking for peace.. they're looking for a fight.

to all my vox friends and neighbors your kind words get me through the day. I wish we could all have coffee someday and chit chat :)

love love love.

Loathing:

stepmonster.

my jiggly ass and stomach.

bills.

my broken car.

Loving:

jessica, my friend, who's being totally supportive throughout this stepmonster thing.

fuckin' peaches and cottage cheese. the best.

the sun is out.

payday is tomorrow. (so glad because my gas light is on)

this one goes out to my neighbor Patti ;-)

Kurt was going out with a nice girl and finally popped the question. "Will you marry me, darling?" he asked.

Lisa smiled coyly and said, "Yes, if you'll buy me a mink."

Kurt thought for a moment and then replied, "Okay, it's a deal, on one condition."

"What is that?" Lisa asked.

"You'll have to clean the cage," Kurt replied.

why am I such a raging bitch today? its not time for PMS. I didn't get dumped. I have all my limbs still in tact. WTF? Some days I guess ya just feel like being a nasty nasty bitch.

I just ate leftovers for lunch. Well, I didnt finish them, because I didn't want to be eating them in the first place. I like to eat WHAT I WANT TO. Things that I like. Thats probably what gets me into trouble because if I want a fucking donut.. watch out bitches I am getting a donut. If I want taco bell (like I do right now) then watch out I'm getting some fucking BELL. 

I have to work tomorrow, but I really don't mind because I'll be all by myself and thats the way I like it. It will allow for much time spent surfing the net (once I finish my work) and I like that too. No, work crush won't be in. He doesn't work Saturdays and acutally neither do I, but I thought I would cover for the Saturday girl and give her a chance to spend time with her family.

I have a question. How the fuck do you meet friends (girlfriends) when your 24? It seems like once your out of school.  Youre on your own there and if you havent keep in touch with people from high school and college.. well, then your fucked. I hate that. I wish I had more girlfriends. I'll be honest, when I go get my morning coffee and starbucks. I am cursing the group of girls that sit there and chat every morning. Curses to you and your girlyfriends. How do I make friends without seeming like a desperate psycho and approaching them? Clubs? Book readings? WTF?

xoxo

Dearest friends, grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. It is with rare occasion that I find myself departing from the current text of study, in this case the book of Galatians. Today friends I want to share a quick exhortation…. I was driving home from work the other evening and the Lord reminded me of a passage from Luke chapter 24, where two of Jesus’ followers were walking along the road to Emmaus and Jesus came along side of them unrecognized and proceeded to expound the scriptures as they walked along. Once they arrived at the village the two urge Jesus to come and stay with them as it was late and the day was almost gone. Jesus agreed and went in with them and as they sat at the table, Jesus blessed, broke and gave the bread to them; it was then that their eyes were opened and they knew it was Jesus and they said to one another, “Did not our heart burn within us while He talked with us on the road, and while He opened the Scriptures to us?”  and they got up that very hour and returned to Jerusalem.

Now, what spoke to me as I was pondering this passage the other day was the fact that their hearts burned within them as Jesus was near; as they walked along they had no idea they were talking to the Lord but they knew within them that something was very different about this conversation. The word burn used here means to consume or set on fire; this is the fire that fuels reformation and revival, this is the fire that could not be silenced by the Pharisees when Peter stood before them and said “We ought to obey God rather than men. The God of our fathers raised up Jesus whom you murdered by hanging on a tree. Him God has exalted to His right hand to be Prince and Savior, to give repentance to Israel and forgiveness of sins. And we are His witnesses to these things, and so also is the Holy Spirit whom God has given to those who obey Him.” Friends, this is the fire that ought to blaze furiously within us to passionately serve God as we pass from this life to the next. The question I ask myself and pose to you as we travel along the path God has set before us, is our heart being utterly consumed at the mere mention of the name of Jesus? Does our heart burn within us because Jesus is near? Friends, let us not reserve our hearts to smoldering embers and a poof of smoke as the fleeting thought of Jesus barely tickles our frontal lobe.

In Christ Jesus my Lord and Savior,
Mark

Okay so yesterday he walked by my office.. and then he walked by again going the opposite direction. (very rare that he even walks by) So I just said 'screw it, Im sick of sitting here obsessing over a non-exsistant relationship' and with that I said to him " Hey! come here for a second." To which he did..all smiley and cute and he said "whatever it is, I didn't do it" (okay I know kinda dorky.) I asked him his name and he stood there and chatted with me for a few minutes about work. Honestly up close he's not as cute as I thought he was. Don't get me wrong, he's still adorable and incredibly nice.. just not what I expected. Actually he looks a lot like Christian Slater. That heart throb from the late 80's early 90's.. Anyways, he was nice guy. Kinda dorky, but really nice. And I still think he's really adorable, but thats about the extent of it. This morning I woke up and instead of lusting over him in a romantic way, I was thinking he's going to be a good friend.

xoxo

hooray! for work crushes. and thats all I'm gonna say.

xoxo